I just took a long walk home from jo's house. ok actually i took a cab until i reached the start of sixth ave, and then i walked home. but still it was pretty long. it was virtually frm one end of sixth ave to the other. anw, that's not exactly the pt. i think it's my period. im feeling exceptionally melancholic tonight/this morning. maybe it was the super heavy dinner. I like walking along 6th ave. i think it's a beautiful place. i likethe long strech of roads with tress lining from end to end. and i like the houses. and i like the busstops. and i like the street lamps. it's just so quiet and peaceful. it's the 1st timeim walking this stretch of road at erm, around midnight. so i think it's good. because ive walked along this stretch of road in early morning, late evening, afternoon, early evening, late morning and blahblah blah. and at differenttimes of the day, u see a diffeent side of the road. and at different times of the day, i feel different walking the road. I remember a few yrs back, i was feeling qt upset over smth(i cant rmb what). and so i decided to walk home. and throughout the journey home, i felt kinda lonely(it's like walking a lonely stretch of rd alone in late evening). but when i gothome, i just felt so much better. it just takes my mind off things. and it'slike when i reach home, ive reached a destination, kinda thing, so i think i subconciously see it as the end of the shit im gng through, and that ive reached another phase. and home is where the heart is :) so im happy to be home. it's like no matter how crappy things go outside, i always have a home to go back to. this morning, i just took a stroll home again. this time, i's darker and quieter. but there were many cars, so i think it made things a bit better. i actually enjoyed my walk. it made me feel like ive got control. and it makes me feel a certain sense of peace and like tranquility. and i took my time to kinda rmb how the houses looked at 12plus am. and i alsonoticed that the only pathetic playground along 6th ave has NO swings. how pathetic is that. ive nv played at that playground since i was a kid. i always went to my grandma's place. so im glad i had swings for childhood. if that playground had a swing, i wld prolly had gone to play with it during the walk. youknow like how pplalways say that it's the lil things in life that count blah blah. i think a walk like that is one of those lil things. i mean, these walks helped me appreciate the place i stay in.andnot to take things for granted. and if i ever move to somewhere else, id have memories of 6th ave.i always like to think of 6th ave as a lil suburban town. (coz it's sg, so the best i can do is to PRETEND that i live in somewhere suburban). haha. a bit like wisteria lane in desperate housewives. haha. i like it. anw, just to sidetrack, i think walking alone late at night or smth is very gd for character. especially for girls. because the walks make u feel super lonely, and u gotta deal wih it. i think im afraid of loneliness, and everyone prolly is, just that most ppl dont liek to admit it, or choose to ignore it. so anw, walkin alone late at night forces u to face up to that loneliness, and somehow i feel it makes u (or at least, me) stronger. it's a bit like "o man im so lonely. i have no one towalk this shit with me. i wished i had soemone by my side. but heck i'll survive anw". i cant believe i just blogged so much. must have been the food plus my period. plus the walk.
